After yesterday, I have so much on my mind.
Explanation:
Ever since freshman year of high school, I always liked this girl and wanted so badly to be with her. She means so much to me and I really do treasure the friendship that we share now share. I've tried time and time again to get a relationship started but things never work out and I ended up setting myself up for a fall that hurts more every time. Well, after 2 years, I finally began to give up on the relationship thing and figured it would only stay a friendship. About a month ago, I started going out with another girl who I care very much about. Well, the girl I used to like invited me to go to Cedar Point (an amusement park here in the States) and of course, I said yes. Yesterday we headed there and everything just seemed to click the exact way I wanted them to so long ago. I think I would have been fine if it wasn't for the ride home. I was really tired as I had only gotten 2 hours of sleep and had just crashed from the 8-Red Bulls adrenaline rush. Well I was sitting there kinda leaning up against the inside of the car and I just noticed her looking at me, not like a creepy stare or anything like that. I got up and looked at her and we just kinda stood there for a while, looking eye-to-eye with each other. In that instant, I realized I had not really given up on the hope of a relationship, just pushed it aside and tried to ignore it.
So now I am so confused on how to feel and how to deal with all this. Between Cedar Point and the ride home, I was completely blown away and now I don't know what to do. Any other time and I would be so happy, I wouldn't know what to do but now, when I already have a girlfriend, I'm stuck in a drift in the middle of my own emotions.
So yea.
- Will